Haven't had an Apple device in ~10 years. All I had was a 1st gen iPod Touch. This paired with a keyboard and mouse is AMAZING for writing notes. It can be a great focus buddy and a distraction when needed. The iPad is my friend. It's tempting me to be an iOS developer...
I interviewed Dr. Benjamin Hardy for his take on personality tests: they're a myth and a waste of time. This book uncovers the psychological barriers, traumas and more that define our current narrative. Summary: It's not who we are, but what we will become. Highly recommended.
Say that your circle is normal. You want to create, achieve, lead. You want to build. This is where you can find fellow builders. They share their energy, their methods, their projects, and you take in that enthusiasm. Within all this, you can create something for yourself.